Tuesday, December 05, 2006

Awareness

Things I don’t have, don’t possess, who I am not- I can choose to focus on these things and create a myriad of imaginable, minute dramas each portraying why I don’t have these things, how I can get them, how I would feel owning them- and still, I’m no where closer to what I desire. Sometimes I fall in love with the drama, the play of consciousness most rewarding; that which I choose to feed.

Things I do have, tangible or intangible, and who I truly am- I tend to overlook, and here is where I am becoming more aware- I am in possession of all that I need, as I am. Desiring more, results in resistance and that guarantees more of what I don’t have. But even desiring to not desire brings about a resistance, which offers its own paradoxical guarantee. Becoming aware of where my head is at and seeing desire for what it is: a thought process composed of lower energy seeking attunement with highest energy, is enough (what is highest energy but a realization that all is perfectly fine, here & now- even thoughts that things are not.)

It involves a most peculiar navigation into something profoundly mysterious where I must, must lose my way- even my very self, to arrive at the end, which is where I began. My “wayward” expedition into the mystery is a journey shared by every living soul. I know I am never alone. We are collectively on this journey, each of us trading turns showing the way.

Sitting around the fire last week, Trev Diesel played an original song called “Sharptooth” which is “a retelling of an ancient Indian tale about a tiger being raised by goats (thereby believing he himself is a goat)” in which he sang the following lines,

“Lift your voice and let out a shout, you’ll see the limits you’ve lived with, you’ll know the power you’ve lived without.”

We are destined to own the paradox of being both tiger and goat, which is the same as the journey into the mystic. Each of us while on the same path feels like we are alone, that there is something we are missing, something we are or we are not holding us back, but this is a falsehood which is in place so that at our weakest, we can call forth that which is always already in us- that will save us. Only when we’ve seen the limits we’ve lived with can we know the power we’ve lived without.

“At any moment in time, all Spirit is concentrated at the point where we focus our attention.” Wayne Dyer

5 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

Irving says:

A wonderful and true post. To be always in the now is one of the goals of the Sufi path, and part of reaching it is to let go of wants and needs, of desires and regrets.

Peace and Blessings!

8:57 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Meredith says:

I have begun to love the paradox of the spiritual journey. All the twists and turns, the opposite distinctions that are both true… this is the playfulness of spirit.

Our heads spin with paradoxes such as the “desire to not desire.” We just have to smile at ourselves. You write, “I must, must lose my way- even my very self, to arrive at the end, which is where I began.”

These playful truths emerge over and over again along our way as we “navigate into something profoundly mysterious.”

It is truly an amazing journey.

8:58 AM  
Blogger Trev Diesel said...

Wow, tommy. Glad to have inspired you. "I am in possession of all that I need" How difficult to understand that our limitations are self imposed.

They Dyer quote also makes me think of the classic yoga phrase: "Where attention goes, energy follows."

Inspiring reflections today.

9:04 AM  
Blogger trinitystar said...

As Irving says one of the goals of the Sufi path. Yet one cant help feeling alone as we tread each step. As Meredith says the twists and the turns ... the paradox of the journey. In a way it unfolds to us what we can understand at that moment.

It is our fear that holds us back from our travels along the Mystics path.
The paragraph below has been very inspirational for me.
We are destined to own the paradox of being both tiger and goat, which is the same as the journey into the mystic. Each of us while on the same path feels like we are alone, that there is something we are missing, something we are or we are not holding us back, but this is a falsehood which is in place so that at our weakest, we can call forth that which is always already in us- that will save us. Only when we’ve seen the limits we’ve lived with can we know the power we’ve lived without.

Would you mind if I used your post on my blog and link it back here.
For there are a few people that come to me that would perhaps gain from your posts.
Thank you for the space.
I would like to place you on my blog roll.
:o)

5:23 AM  
Blogger isaiah said...

Thank you for your kind words. I

Yes, please use anything from my blog if it will inspire others. Feel free to link as well-

Peace & blessings,

11:17 AM  

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